This is kind of an ironic post, considering my last title about two posts back. So I was looking at an older post and read it over again. The list written out was one about stuff I want to do before I get married and I feel that one of the things on the list I have done already. Number eight talks about how I want to make a large mistake and learn from it. I feel like parts of my life have been a mistake, or are an ongoing constant mistake. This past year, I opened myself up to a person of the opposite sex only to be completely burnt and left alone. I cannot see myself trusting him again. If I could not trust him romantically, how could I trust him as a friend?

Either way, I feel that without that experience I would be still wanting a boyfriend or yearning for that certain male presence in my life. I am fine without a boyfriend and have been in the past... but with this guy I think it was that I really wanted to be touched and loved physically (whether it be by holding hands or kissing). He felt that I was just getting too attached when he was wanting anything but. We patched things up a little bit to where we were civilized towards one another after weeks of not speaking to each other (because, let's face it, he was a complete and utter sissy), and I still had feelings for him. I knew they were completely over on his side when I saw him before I left for my six week vacation this summer and he high-fived me instead of giving a hug. Recently I've been burned by him again by what seems like a lie. He probably, I'm 90% sure, did not mean to never make me want to date again but he hurt me to the point where I wish he would move so I wouldn't have to be in pain anymore seeing him.

It may sound harsh and a bit rash but I'm fine with deleting a person off of facebook, myspace, my phone, ripping tickets and memories because its the only way I can completely get over a person, male or female. I just don't see the sense in keeping the person around because I am constantly tempted to look at pictures or reminisce about old times. Also seeing them with a significant other would just eat me up inside, whether or not it was personal or not.

So basically, back to what this post was originally about, I've learned to keep some things to myself. That, to me, is huge. I'm usually a very open person in the sense that I will let most anyone into my life. I always felt like I was ostracized and not accepted when I was younger so I never wanted anyone to ever feel that same way. I now know that there are some things that you should keep to yourself. Some things that are meant to be kept pure and just for one other soul and not someone that will burn it with their hands, words, and actions. I will never let anyone burn me like that again. I am currently being pursued... which is completely lovely and pure... but I know my boundaries and I have stated them... I am human and I know what I am capable of and what I am not capable of. We'll see how this goes... one day at a time.

But poetry has struck me as a way to cope:

untitled #2
Your smile was never for me.
It was always meant for someone else.
Nonetheless, it tore at my flesh
and made my bones shake.

It was all too soon.
the kisses were not real, just deception.
A whirlwind of hope and imagination
of things that I lusted for.

Brittle you made me,
My body is no more my own.
You took it like a property,
burning what was pure and good.

Your words like confused darts
quaked and wobbled my world.
Behind coal glasses layed a serpent
waiting to watch a planet burn.

Do you ever feel like you have so many ideas but you can't figure out a way to execute them? I definitely feel a little bit of pressure to start on some of my ideas...

Life has been kind of a whirl lately. Getting back from Saranac definitely hits you when you realize that people aren't working for the same thing. Saranac is bittersweet in the sense that it is a Utopia that has the best people in the world there but it doesn't prepare you for the things and battles you'll have coming home. Just lately my life has been consumed by work and playing catch-up. I've moved locations on campus and in the midst of it all, have realized how much useless crap I have... so I purged about 70% of it. Thats a horrible statistic, but whatever. I still need to get rid of a ton of stuff, so when I have time I'll give it away to Goodwill or Salvation Army.

Only about 5 more days until I turn 21. What a weird time in my life. Last year I thought it was so weird that I wasn't a teenager anymore and now I'm just weirded out how quickly time flies by in your lifetime. I remember so many things from years ago that are so vivid they might as well have been yesterday. I'm excited though to be able to order a drink with a meal or just go out and not be judged or whatnot. Having a double birthday party with my friend, Andrew, so that should be fun! :) Life is good.

If your personality had to be summed up as a sandwich, what kind of sandwich would you be?
The blackened tofu sandwich from the PPK.com. Its got lots of yummy things like tomatoes and lettuce but then a spicy kick with the tofu. yum. :)


If you knew that someone was dying, but they didn’t know, would you tell them the truth or deceive them about it?
I would just spend as much time with them as possible. I mean if i told them, then maybe they would wake up and do everything they ever wanted to do. But then again, maybe they would get depressed? I guess it depends on the person.

Do you dress the same when you are depressed as you do when you are very happy?
I care about the way I look in my dress. I don't think I would ever really dress drab just because I was feeling drab. that would make me even more depressed. My face is usually expressive enough to tell you whether I am sad or not.... Plus, life is too short for bad clothes :)

Which is a good thing I suppose? This weekend was kind of uneventful but I got some work done. Friday was a good day with going to the Justice Revival at the Vineyard Church in Westerville, OH. I missed Shane Claiborne the previous night though which is a bummer :(. Really wanted to hear him speak because I read his book this past summer while I was in California.

Speaking of California, I'm waiting for my internship opportunity to give me the yay or nay. AHH! It is so frustrating waiting for something you want so badly! Story of our lives, eh? I know that God has some amazing stuff planned for me but its definitely a bummer when you know you can't control what you want. But then again, it's definitely a good thing... Less stuff for me to worry about :)

So friday, heard the Justice Revival about mentoring and basically being a servant of God. It was pretty good. I have not been in awhile. They brought up Isaiah 58:6 through I'm pretty sure 14... and used that in their service.

6 Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
and break every yoke?

7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
when you see the naked, to clothe him,
and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?

8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness [a] will go before you,
and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
"If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,

10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.

11 The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.

12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.

13 "If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath
and from doing as you please on my holy day,
if you call the Sabbath a delight
and the LORD's holy day honorable,
and if you honor it by not going your own way
and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,

14 then you will find your joy in the LORD,
and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land
and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob."
The mouth of the LORD has spoken.

Saturday was a great lazy day. I went swimming for the first time in forever. Since I think this past summer in August. I swam out in California when I was on vacation and I have not been since. Bummer cause it is awesome! I have goggles and everything :) Watched two huge surfing movies too. Riding Giants and Step into Liquid. Amazing people those surfers. I do not know why I love this culture so much but I just do. I love that with this sport you do it for the pleasure. It's like a drug that is amazing for you and they say once you catch your first wave... you're hooked. I want to be part of that. SO BAD. But so yes, Saturday made me want to buy every surf video available. :)


Riding Giants Trailer

Step into Liquid trailer

Rest of saturday just worked... and it was so dead. Weird. My dad came home that night after finishing a 190 bike race. 190!!! I am so proud of my father. I admit that for awhile we didn't like each other. At least i did not. I thought my father was childish and socially handicapped for awhile. But I love and appreciate him so much. He tries so hard in everything he does and he finally found something he's good at. He's good at everything after awhile because he has incredible dedication and willpower but this time he is really amazing. He has lost about 50 pounds and at the beginning of his journey in biking he could barely bike 10-15 miles. Now he is finishing 190 miles in about 12 hours in less than a year. What progress!!!

<>My dad skiing in the Alps in the 70's :) What a stud.

But when he was sitting down on my couch, drinking green tea with his 40 spoons of sugar (ha!), he had me sit next to him and just held me in his arm and I cuddle next to him. I just snuggled up and felt his warmth. I love my father. Ha, i was watching Rock of Love: The Reunion last night... and as trashy as that show is, there was a very touching moment. Destiney, a contestant on the show, lost her father two weeks ago due to liver cancer. She started bawling and even Bret Michels shed a tear. I cannot imagine my father gone. Who would help me? Who would comfort me when no one else would? Who would believe in me? I'm tearing up as I write this. He is freaking incredible. I'm so proud of him. I have the best father in the world.

Sunday, no work... means homework. Finished French and enjoyed my sunday with Bethany and eating taco bell. :D I need to stop filling my body with crap and go back to eating raw, healthy, veggies and fruit. I was good up until like a week ago when I ran out of food money. :-P P.S. Taco Bell ran out of beef last night? Seriously. I don't eat beef (or just meat for that matter) but... taco bell? Out of beef? Seriously? ha!

But anyway, French test today... :) gotta study. Talk to you amazing people later :)

I have a problem being happy sometimes... and it is definitely getting me down to know that. And I do not want to be that friend anymore. So I'm going to start giving you some little tidbits from my life that give me joy :)

It's 9:30 am and already...
1. The sun is shining. My Lord, I love the sunshine. I LOVE feeling the sun on my face. I don't know what i would do if i lived in a rainy, cloudy place. That would be Hell for me. Not only fire but just overcast skies. all the time. bleh

2. I don't work until 4pm, so I can enjoy that sunshine in it's prime hours and get out of class at 1:18 to do it. :)

3. My new hair still smells like the shampoo from the salon. One of the best smells in the world! Haha, I should write down later what my favorite non-food smells are or something... I did that with non-musical sounds a little while back.

4. Finding really sweet Bible verses in my email. Philippians 4:10-13 is such a great little passage. Paul is talking about how he knows how to have very little and how to have plenty. God gives him strength through all things and that is the source of his contentment. Knowing the Lord will provide and take care of him. Makes me definitely trust the Lord more... so I printed out that passage to stick by my desk :)

5. I get to see a certain handsome someone today :) Its always a good day for that!

a little treat for you guys to get your day going with your morning coffee (Thats what I did!) :)

(If thats even in my future, let's pray that it's a possibility :) cause I want someone to shower with tlc and don't have to have an excuse to do it!) ... So if it is... this is what i want to accomplish beforehand

1. Travel for awhile and visit all my friends that I have not seen in awhile. I have a lot of cool friends just living out of the America or within the states.... but about 3 or so states away... so needless to say I don't see them often.
2. Have my art in a gallery. Doesn't have to be dedicated to just me, although that would be nice. I need to perfect my techniques and really churn out some good pieces. I'm my biggest handicap... I need to actually start producing pieces again.
3. Start writing a book or compiling my journals to create some story about me, or a character like me. I don't know. I feel different than a lot of people and if people saw excerpts from my journal... maybe I would be able to find people to relate to.
4. Learn to wakeboard... well. :)
5. Learn guitar and learn to songwrite.
6. buy something to completely spoil myself and not worry about if it is going to affect my joint checking account or upset my spouse. :)
7. Take a road-trip/beach-trip/any-kind-of-lets-get-outta-here-trip with friends.
8. Make one large mistake and learn from it. I don't know what. I just know that God has stuff planned for me and I'm just kind of sitting here twiddling my thumbs and living it out... I always learn from what He hands to me.
9. Make a documentary out of that trip in number 7.
10. buy my first house/apartment.

I can't relate.

I've been slacking a whole ton... not on purpose... I just get so tired that my brain feels like its putty oozing out of my ears when I am reading my homework. But at the same time, life is pretty good right now. Things aren't really going wrong and I really realized how awesome my friends are due to a comment that was made by a new friend of mine. He said that my friends are really awesome... and I was like.. Yea... YEA they ARE! haha.

Can we saw off some of the United states so that Ohio can have a beach? K Thanks. I'm kind of tired of this weather.

Sorry I'm absent from this blog... I need to start updating it more. I'll get more organized and I'll finally do everything I was planning to do. Take care for tonight. :)

life is good. and I'll leave you with uber cuteness... :)




enjoooy! :)

"You may say to yourself, "My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth." - Deuteronomy 8:17-18a

*Now this post is not aimed towards any specific person... so no worries mates :)*

So as I have been talking more with my friends, I have noticed that a lot of them have said that many people have felt intimidated by me at first impression. The more I look at the situation, the more I can agree and see what they mean. First, the most obvious thing is that I am a six foot tall girl. I also am not shy, I am not delicate, and I'm pretty vibrant. Even when I am docile and a little quiet, I have a stoic expression on my face that isn't easily approached.

My apologies.

So to all people, please approach me. No wonder I had few friends in highschool... people were intimidated. I'm really not that bad. I'm just like a normal person that wants friends and wants to be happy. My life is not perfect just like yours. My life is good sometimes... just like yours. I'm a normal girl.

And this post is mainly written for guys. Okay, I'm decent looking. I know it and I won't be fishing for compliments saying oh no i'm not! Cause.. whatever. But guys... don't think that you don't have a chance at all with me. I probably think the same of you guys sometimes. I've had guys saying "Oh you would never date someone like me," How do you know? Do you guys seriously think that I base my dating standards on looks first? Sure physical attraction is wonderful but PUH-LEEEASE... Personality is so much more important. What good is a partner if you can't even relate to them? I don't want a doormat that looks pretty on my front step or a good accessory, I want a guy who is a partner.

You guys never give me a chance. If you do, its all in good fun and temporary. How am I supposed to give you a chance if you won't even give me one? Its frustrating because a lot of guys I have liked in the past have told me they felt the same way the same time I did... just not anymore. I'm totally fine without a relationship but I would love a guy to have the balls to pursue me like a real man. Psh. I don't know... i mean if you like a person get to know them. How are you going to get to know them or know that you want to be with them if you're scared of talking about stuff like that?

so
a. don't be scared.
b. give me a chance to get to know you...
c. ...and then we'll both decide if we're right for each other.

understand? I sure hope so. so please guys... brush up on that confidence that makes you so much more attractive. ;)

Thanks!
-Nath

Things I love this week:

Long Phone Conversations I love being able to talk for a long time on the phone with a friend that you haven't been able to talk to in a while. My friend Kevin, from california, called this past week and I just totally loved that conversation where we've been able to update each other on our lives. We've both been busy with school and misc. things but we talked about everything from school to travel. Pretty awesome.

Realizations I realize I'm a highly visual person. I don't know. I read this quote in Nylon magazine by MK Olsen where she says that she is the same way and everything she does has to be pleasing to the eyes. I Love art and expressing yourself. There doesn't have to be a reason for it but I'm just terribly bored when people all look the same and do the same stuff. I also was watching the top 40 videos of 2007 (according to VH1) and I loved the videos and how artistic they were. I realized I really have to use my gift. I have a gift to be able to create and I definitely do not use it enough.

Flight of the Conchords This funny folk comedy duo from New Zealand I've been listening to and watching since this past summer have cracked me up so much. Their song "if you're into it" is my new ringtone. I will let it ring a little bit longer than my past ones cause I enjoy it that much! haha!

Superbad saw the movie with my friend Jeff from back home, freaking loved it. I really thought it was going to be that... super bad. But definitely made me laugh a bunch.

Nice Text Messages thats all. you know when you got a good one. :)

Its been 2 years since one of my best friends passed away. He was living the dream and going to his dream school at MIT. He was beautiful and loved by everyone. I can't tell you how much my standards were raised about guys. Its hard to match up to him. I love and miss him so much... so I'll share some of my favorite pictures of him.
Zach I miss you. Come home.



this picture above was taken the weekend before he passed on thursday december 1, 2005. I miss him so much. words cannot explain how much.

1. You're not going to get along with everyone.

2. Friends fade away... its possible to not have a lot in common with someone anymore... you're not going to talk to them like you used to.

3. cookie dough always tastes better than the actual cookie.

4. The guy you thought was perfect isn't... and proves it over and over to you so you that you are constantly reminded. but hopelessly feeling stupid.

5. 8 hour days for work are normal? Maybe?

6. that lightening up is good for the soul.

7. power naps are the best when its cloudy or cold out. Naps just in general.

8. The holidays are overrated with the whole relationship thing.... and wanting someone for the holidays.

9. Your friends not only fade away but they're mortal too. You'll lose loved ones in your life you never thought you would to the most stupid things.

10. Kissing your life as it is... is the best way to deal with the depression that you can face when you feel like you don't belong... but saving your money and thinking about how you're gonna book it out of here when its all done and over with is good too. :)

Its obvious that I shouldn't be in Ohio and it is plainly obvious that I am not from here either. I don't have ANY really nice cold weather essentials. you know... oh like if its raining, actual good rainboots... Or a rainproof jacket. I don't even own an umbrella. Living here for a little bit over a decade would really tell a normal person.. but nuh uh, not me. More is that back home, I live in a one story house with no basement... which was a big no no growing up because every spring theres always these huge tornado warnings... but luckily they never come our way. It makes for a good story thought when I tell my friends that my mom always screamed for us to get into the bathtub with our cats. I don't ever want to die that way, just to let you know. I also don't follow ohio sports... whatev. over iiiitttt

so to be a proper midwesterner:
1. have a northface (if you want to hop onto the bandwagon) or some other really warm jacket.
2. An umbrella should be a no-brainer... hey i'm blond give me a break!
3. proper footwear. It makes me cringe seeing girls wear flip flops in 27 degree weather.
4. like football.

the one thing I did get right and I will be a customer of forever... The Palmer's Cocoa Butter Stick. Its a over-sized tube of chapstick that you can buy at CVS, Ulta Beauty, Walgreens and your other pharmacies. Its good for your scars, any dry skin, and its amazing for your lips. Tastes really good too. I am an absolute chapstick-happy fiend and I apply it every five seconds (gotta keep those lips soft for my imaginary boyfriend right? haha) and I never get tired of the taste and it does not build up to make it seem like your lips have a layer of gunk over them. The vitamin E soothes and makes your lips real soft!And being that into my chapstick... I go through a lot and this has lasted me since july and I still have over half left! awesome! for a mere 3.29 a pop this is a GREAT deal for students and any beauty lovers alike. ;) I've also put this accidentally through the wash/dryer and no melting or anything. This is like, the mother of all chapsticks!

So all in all:
Taste: 5 out of 5 stars. Tastes pretty good, I like the mild cocoa butter flavor because it never seems like overkill.
Size: 4 out of 5 stars. All my friends thought I was putting on glue cause the tube is so big. So you might get a few weird looks... thats the only reason its 4 out of 5. But it fits in your purse, manbag, pockets just fine.
Lifetime: 6 out of 5 stars. its lasted me almost 6 months. 'nuff said.
Price: 5 out of 5 stars. $3.29 for .5 oz but it lasts FOREVER. You can't beat it. :)

I'm selling my art work... if you want a piece let me know. seriously. i need some cash. :)

I'm at a loss for words. I'm at a loss for what I'm supposed to be doing. I struggle just like any other person. I think the biggest misconception people have about people with faith to Jesus Christ is that we're perfect and we have the greatest lives ever. false. I struggle so much. I just feel like this isn't supposed to be my life. Like I'm supposed to be somewhere else. Which is true.. but also somewhere else during the Earthly life. People tend to forget that I'm allowed to be lost and I'm allowed to want more than this... but I'm supposed to be put together. I'm supposed have everything figured out. Well I'm not and I don't.

I try to kiss my life and accept it just as it is today but its getting me down right now.

I'm losing grip.



::sigh::

EDIT: my one and only new years resolution already... Start on my bucket list I have waiting.

Make a difference or at least create something:
http://learningtoloveyoumore.com
become a guerilla artist!

more to come for sunday...

this week's Friday5

1. If you were on a game show and could phone a friend for help, who would your lifelines be for sports, arts & music, literature, history and geography, and science?
Sports would probably be my friend Karl... he seems to know everything about sports. plus he's always playing one. Arts and Music would be Laura or Marta, Literature would be most definitely Brett, History and Geography most definitely = JJ. its his major haha! Lastly science would probably be Ian and Jon... bio major and the other a veterinary medicine major.

2. When you need someone with muscles to help you with a task, who’s the first one you call?
haha any of the brickhouse boys. Its just a house full of brawny men. haha!

3. When you need some creative help with ideas for a project, who’s the first person you call?
Laura or Brian. Super creative minds. I love it.

4. When you have a moral dilemma and need advice, on whom do you rely most?
Alicia when shes here... But for breaking rules I call marta... she is my partner in crime even though she's all the way in freaking London, England!

5. When you need to know the best way to get somewhere, which of your directionally-gifted friends do you call upon first?
Unfortunately... I am that friend. So if I'm lost... God help my other friends! ;)

Laird Hamilton, if you didn't know already, is one of the (if not THE) greatest big wave surfers in history. He is interviewed in Relevant Magazine for the Nov/Dec issue and I had no idea he was a believer. Freakin eh! Thats awesome! These are my two favorite Q&A's he had with the (incredibly awesome) magazine (that everyone should go read)... italics were put in by me by the way:

"Relevant Magazine: The 'thanks to' section of your Laird DVD ends with the following text: '... most of all to the one who made it all possible, the Lord.' Can you describe your relationship with God?
Laird Hamilton: Yes. Its an ongoing struggle to follow the messages in the bible that are designed to make the lives of Christians easier, to help us bypass of the pain and problems of this life. At the end of the day, we're all just people who share common struggles, urges and issues everyone has. Some of the churches I've visited have made me sad because the people there seem to have forgotten that Jesus told us not to judge, or we will be judged. I think it if were up to man, we'd all be cast into hell, because we're all quick to point out other people's flaws. I don't like to broadcast my relationship with the Lord because I don't want to be running around saying, 'Look at me, I'm perfect. I'm holier than thou,' because I'm not; I'm not great. I'm grateful for the forgiveness I have in God. In some ways life is easier when you don't know God, because once you know Him you're accountable.

RM: How do your experiences with 60-foot waves and other incredible forces of nature affect your posture towards God?
Hamilton: They make me grateful. Looking at my life, at the blessings I've had and continue to have, I realize that I am unworthy. I need to remember that I'm just a man-I need the hope, love, and grace the Word offers. I have to consciously remember to be positive and to give thanks to the Lord. There are blessings everyday, but its so easy to get off track and not acknowledge that.' "

Definitely have mad respect towards this man. :)


P.S. a surfing video on Laird Hamilton. He's basically a BAMF if I've ever seen one.

1. Of peace, joy, love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control, which are you most lacking?
Probably patience and peace. I advocate so much peace and I love peace but its inner peace that I lack. I am not at peace with where I am at and with who I am just yet. I keep wanting to improve who I am and become a better person. Then, with that, comes my impatience. When things do not go as planned or I'm not good at something right away, I get very easily discouraged... and I become like a little spoiled brat when it comes to wanting something right. I'm learning though... always learning

2. Of peace, joy, love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control, which are you most blessed with?
I have an amazing amount of self-control. Although I like to be outspoken and give my opinion... When it comes to a goal... I like to set myself on that path and put my blinders on until I reach it. Though, with the answer to my last question, I get antsy along the way... but my faithfulness comes in. I have an incredible amount of faith in people, my missions, and God.

3. The Scout Law says that a scout is trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent. Which of these are relative strengths for you?
Thrifty. I like making new things out of old ;)

4. Which of the elements in the Scout Law are relative weaknesses for you?
I'm not always as helpful as I would like to be. I'd like to be brave like i was when I was little again too.

5. If you were to create a list-type law, such as the Scout Law, for your occupation, what might it look like?
"A Human being is to be kind, love and encourage peace, treat everything as if it were a miracle, honor and cherish integrity, Laugh often, Risk, Discourage Censorship of your mind and feelings, and find out what makes them come alive."

how sweet would it be
If you knew I loved you for you?
if you knew I didnt care about your past?
if you knew that I didn't even acknowledge your baggage?
if you knew how hard I was trying to pick you up when you were down?
if you knew how I hung onto every word you said?
if you knew how I smiled everytime you were in and out of the room?
how awesome, how sweet, how pure would that be?

a response... how i took it. may of been for someone else. whatever.

You may have seen us across the Oval, going to class, just like any other student there to get their four year 'in-and-out' five year degree for higher education. We're like any other student on campus except for one thing. Our 2 wheeled friends taking us to class in t-minus 5 minutes. While you're trekking to class for 20 minutes (or a half hour if you're a freshman), we are zipping by due to our incredible logic. Bike = fast. Fast = less time wasted going across this monstrocity of a college campus. I know that some people get annoyed with us, but trust me you guys are no picnic either. lets go over this and maybe we can work out some sort of schedule or something. These are some of the main/repeat offenders on Ohio State's campus

1.) The World Revolves Around My Footsteps Walker: This person is 80%-90% of people crossing campus. LOOK WHERE YOU'RE GOING. Theres a reason why there are almost collisions, cause friggin people don't look where they're going. When you're on a bike you have to look at where you're going next cause, HELLO, you're on a type of vehicle. Its like driving a car, except within people. So yea, look where you're going please and thank you.

2.) The Lets Take up the Whole Sidewalk Walker: Man, which side should I walk on? the right? left? Middle? Okay, I'll just zig zag and end up staying in the middle, not move, and have other people walk around me. Okay people, the answer is RIGHT. Stay to the RIGHT. If you were driving you wouldn't zig zag across the road and stay in the middle of two lanes. ITS THE SAME FRIGGIN THING. Stay on the RIGHT and just like on the highway (whoa!) faster people (a.k.a. bikes) will pass you to the left. Also, girls... STOP walking four people abreast. Theres other people besides you and besides me trying to get through. We don't want to fight through your conversation of "OMIGAWWWWD I got so trashed last night" to be able to walk to opposite (thank you Lord) direction of you.

3.) The Deer in Headlights Walker: You guys are the worst. You just stop DEAD in your tracks when a bike is heading in your direction. Did you have a depressing day and when you see my bike, do you get an idea that on your last day you want to see tires as your last thing on Earth? I'd rather have to veer off my path onto the grass than have to halt on my brakes just to not run into you. I'm six feet tall. Yea, I'm big. I'm so big I've gotten measured for my bike. 20 inches of beautiful bike are under my butt and its kind of hard to be stationary on it despite my height...So don't stop walking!! Don't worry... riders can see believe it or not. We SEE you even before you see us (ahh what a great little hunting scenario, eh?) and trust us, we're not going to run into you. If you stop... YOU ARE AT FAULT of the accident. Next time the screaming bike of terror coming spinning towards you, I'm just going to run you over to fulfill your sudden death wish just keep walking... cause I surely don't want to ruin my bike by running into you.

4.) The Slow as *Insert Colorful Word Here* Walker: Number 4 and Number 1 go hand in hand. These people walk so slow that they might as well not even walk to class (wherever they were going, whatever). They're talking on their cellphone, listening to their rip off and overpriced super hip video ipod, or talking to a person as if they were sitting over an intimate dinner. PICK UP YOUR FEET AND WALK. God made gave you long legs for a reason. I don't care if you're the size of a troll doll, I trust you're physically able to pick up your feet 1-2 inches off the ground to walk.

So please... read these carefully my two legged friends and students and do the opposite of the offenders. You are better than to make these mistakes over and over! Now I know that not everyone can ride bikes on campus, this is a special group... but Campus will be a much happier place because of your dedication and cooperation, just follow the rules of the road.

thanks.

Sincerely,
A Bicycle Rider

this is about my most favorite thing ever.

"Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '99:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind sides you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen."