Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Okay check this out. This is an amazing piece of artwork by Georgia Russell (opens in a new window). It is a cut up book in a bell jar. I just love the fantasy feel of it... As if you would find this floating by its self in a leafy, mossy forest with very ethereal lights and kind of a stillness around it that made you hold your breath as your approached it... maybe scared of it falling apart or disappearing before your very eyes. I could imagine it being part of a game or a quest where its valued as a treasure. I certainly would value it for its beauty. This kind of artwork inspires me so much in just my life as well as my artwork. Art is life. Your entire life is a work of art and why not make it beautiful? Why not make it a fantasy?

::sigh:: too bad everyone is concerned with reality.

good music from ohio... I mean seriously, what else is new? :)

step one.) Take a listen :)

step two.) listen more at or (both open in a new window).

step three.) add this on your myspace, webpage, just get the word and buy some of his tunes :)

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

1. Of peace, joy, love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control, which are you most lacking?
Probably patience and peace. I advocate so much peace and I love peace but its inner peace that I lack. I am not at peace with where I am at and with who I am just yet. I keep wanting to improve who I am and become a better person. Then, with that, comes my impatience. When things do not go as planned or I'm not good at something right away, I get very easily discouraged... and I become like a little spoiled brat when it comes to wanting something right. I'm learning though... always learning

2. Of peace, joy, love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control, which are you most blessed with?

I have an amazing amount of self-control. Although I like to be outspoken and give my opinion... When it comes to a goal... I like to set myself on that path and put my blinders on until I reach it. Though, with the answer to my last question, I get antsy along the way... but my faithfulness comes in. I have an incredible amount of faith in people, my missions, and God.

3. The Scout Law says that a scout is trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent. Which of these are relative strengths for you?
Thrifty. I like making new things out of old ;)

4. Which of the elements in the Scout Law are relative weaknesses for you?
I'm not always as helpful as I would like to be. I'd like to be brave like i was when I was little again too.

5. If you were to create a list-type law, such as the Scout Law, for your occupation, what might it look like?
"A Human being is to be kind, love and encourage peace, treat everything as if it were a miracle, honor and cherish integrity, Laugh often, Risk, Discourage Censorship of your mind and feelings, and find out what makes them come alive."

Friday, October 26, 2007

.. so to all my guy friends who have started dating or having girlfriends... don't make me feel like one. I've had at least a few of my really good guy friends just STOP talking to me after they have gotten girlfriends. One of my friends has gotten engaged and I understand that his fiance might not like him talking to another girl... but I've talked to him WAY before they even started dating. He still sends me things on facebook or whatever but never picks up his phone, responds with one word answers in texts, etc. Its ridiculous. If you consider me your friend then you should sure as heck act like it. My other friend, I know he gets my texts because he texts other people that are around me.. but he never responds. I'm really good friends with his girlfriend who KNOWS we are just friends. Plus its a friggin' long distance friendship anyway... Theres no way that you would be able to cheat on your girlfriend even if you WANTED to. And not that I would even want to. I don't ruin relationships. I don't want anyone messing with the guys that I date... so why would I want to mess with your relationship with your girlfriend? Are you really thinking I am that selfish? Well dude, you're 150% wrong about that and please don't flatter yourself that much. I like you... but i don't "like-like" you. Psh, it just makes me tired because I've been left behind by so many friggin people. I don't need people ignoring me. If you don't want me to be your friend, then tell me... and I'll stop talking to you. God Forbid, you have another person caring about who you are and what you're up to. If you're worried about your girlfriend being uber jealous... then I understand... that your girlfriend can't handle you having friends. I'm sorry you have to deal with that. And please, don't be one of those people that are consumed by their relationship and have no friends after you guys end it. I want to be there if you're ever in trouble, but it sucks when I can't even reach you. Or even if I do, you don't have the integrity to even call me back or whatever. Grow some balls and get over yourself.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I was too busy on friday to answer these... but I'm resting from coaching all day so I'm just gonna answer these friday five :)

1. What was the last thing you baked?
I don't bake as much as I cook. I make a ton of hummus a week... :P yummy. I baked pita chips though to go along with it! So that has to count for something ;)

2. What was the last thing you tried on for size?
Does this mean clothing? or a hobby? So vague. I'm getting interested in a lot of stuff if thats what you mean. I always try on clothes for size ;)

3. What was the last thing you purchased on credit?
I don't have a credit card. yipee! no credit card debt! but yet.... no credit. bleh

4. What was the last thing you put a postage stamp on?
A letter to Blake. Because he's an amazing friend who is my pen pal now :)

5. What was the last thing you took a photo of?
Pretty sure it was when a bunch of us went to Shi Sha lounge. Pretty fun time :)

Friday, October 12, 2007

how sweet would it be
If you knew I loved you for you?
if you knew I didnt care about your past?
if you knew that I didn't even acknowledge your baggage?
if you knew how hard I was trying to pick you up when you were down?
if you knew how I hung onto every word you said?
if you knew how I smiled everytime you were in and out of the room?
how awesome, how sweet, how pure would that be?

a response... how i took it. may of been for someone else. whatever.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

And I think my heart just beat my brains out.

Friday, October 5, 2007

You may have seen us across the Oval, going to class, just like any other student there to get their four year 'in-and-out' five year degree for higher education. We're like any other student on campus except for one thing. Our 2 wheeled friends taking us to class in t-minus 5 minutes. While you're trekking to class for 20 minutes (or a half hour if you're a freshman), we are zipping by due to our incredible logic. Bike = fast. Fast = less time wasted going across this monstrocity of a college campus. I know that some people get annoyed with us, but trust me you guys are no picnic either. lets go over this and maybe we can work out some sort of schedule or something. These are some of the main/repeat offenders on Ohio State's campus

1.) The World Revolves Around My Footsteps Walker: This person is 80%-90% of people crossing campus. LOOK WHERE YOU'RE GOING. Theres a reason why there are almost collisions, cause friggin people don't look where they're going. When you're on a bike you have to look at where you're going next cause, HELLO, you're on a type of vehicle. Its like driving a car, except within people. So yea, look where you're going please and thank you.

2.) The Lets Take up the Whole Sidewalk Walker: Man, which side should I walk on? the right? left? Middle? Okay, I'll just zig zag and end up staying in the middle, not move, and have other people walk around me. Okay people, the answer is RIGHT. Stay to the RIGHT. If you were driving you wouldn't zig zag across the road and stay in the middle of two lanes. ITS THE SAME FRIGGIN THING. Stay on the RIGHT and just like on the highway (whoa!) faster people (a.k.a. bikes) will pass you to the left. Also, girls... STOP walking four people abreast. Theres other people besides you and besides me trying to get through. We don't want to fight through your conversation of "OMIGAWWWWD I got so trashed last night" to be able to walk to opposite (thank you Lord) direction of you.

3.) The Deer in Headlights Walker: You guys are the worst. You just stop DEAD in your tracks when a bike is heading in your direction. Did you have a depressing day and when you see my bike, do you get an idea that on your last day you want to see tires as your last thing on Earth? I'd rather have to veer off my path onto the grass than have to halt on my brakes just to not run into you. I'm six feet tall. Yea, I'm big. I'm so big I've gotten measured for my bike. 20 inches of beautiful bike are under my butt and its kind of hard to be stationary on it despite my height...So don't stop walking!! Don't worry... riders can see believe it or not. We SEE you even before you see us (ahh what a great little hunting scenario, eh?) and trust us, we're not going to run into you. If you stop... YOU ARE AT FAULT of the accident. Next time the screaming bike of terror coming spinning towards you, I'm just going to run you over to fulfill your sudden death wish just keep walking... cause I surely don't want to ruin my bike by running into you.

4.) The Slow as *Insert Colorful Word Here* Walker: Number 4 and Number 1 go hand in hand. These people walk so slow that they might as well not even walk to class (wherever they were going, whatever). They're talking on their cellphone, listening to their rip off and overpriced super hip video ipod, or talking to a person as if they were sitting over an intimate dinner. PICK UP YOUR FEET AND WALK. God made gave you long legs for a reason. I don't care if you're the size of a troll doll, I trust you're physically able to pick up your feet 1-2 inches off the ground to walk.

So please... read these carefully my two legged friends and students and do the opposite of the offenders. You are better than to make these mistakes over and over! Now I know that not everyone can ride bikes on campus, this is a special group... but Campus will be a much happier place because of your dedication and cooperation, just follow the rules of the road.


A Bicycle Rider

Thursday, October 4, 2007

this is about my most favorite thing ever.

"Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '99:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind sides you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.


Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.


Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.


Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.


Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen."

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

It was a fine day in the fifth grade
when mary may let bobby walk her home from school
he had her books in hand
and he was listening to every word she said
like it was the gospel of the prophecies
and he loved the way her hair fell across her dress
went home singing who wrote the book of love
and try a little tenderness

Its so weird how you can be totally concentrating and then someone just comes and messes up your flow. I don't mean that in a hatred kind of way... just kind of annoyed. I don't know what this person wants from me. I'm open to anything... well almost anything with this person... I feel like I'm always waiting on them. Meh. Now all i can think about is them