(If thats even in my future, let's pray that it's a possibility :) cause I want someone to shower with tlc and don't have to have an excuse to do it!) ... So if it is... this is what i want to accomplish beforehand

1. Travel for awhile and visit all my friends that I have not seen in awhile. I have a lot of cool friends just living out of the America or within the states.... but about 3 or so states away... so needless to say I don't see them often.
2. Have my art in a gallery. Doesn't have to be dedicated to just me, although that would be nice. I need to perfect my techniques and really churn out some good pieces. I'm my biggest handicap... I need to actually start producing pieces again.
3. Start writing a book or compiling my journals to create some story about me, or a character like me. I don't know. I feel different than a lot of people and if people saw excerpts from my journal... maybe I would be able to find people to relate to.
4. Learn to wakeboard... well. :)
5. Learn guitar and learn to songwrite.
6. buy something to completely spoil myself and not worry about if it is going to affect my joint checking account or upset my spouse. :)
7. Take a road-trip/beach-trip/any-kind-of-lets-get-outta-here-trip with friends.
8. Make one large mistake and learn from it. I don't know what. I just know that God has stuff planned for me and I'm just kind of sitting here twiddling my thumbs and living it out... I always learn from what He hands to me.
9. Make a documentary out of that trip in number 7.
10. buy my first house/apartment.

I don't know about you, but when I was a kid I wanted a treehouse. I was jealous of Bart Simpson for having such an awesome pad in his backyard for Pete's sake. But this above tops them all. If I had that tree house (called "Spirit Spheres") I would of been the happiest kid. EVER.

There is something fascinating about dark films and just darkness in general in the arts. I love how something usually so ugly can be beautiful. I was just watching television and i saw the movie trailer for Sweeney Todd, the film about the "demonic" barber by Tim Burton. Tim Burton is a freaking artistic genius. All his films never fail to be visually stunning. I cannot wait to see that movie. I used to fear that people thought I was weird for liking these types of things. Skulls, Black, Dark artwork, etc.... but its part of who I am. So... who cares? There is a beautiful art piece that I saw at the dayton art museum a couple of years ago that said "this is all that becomes of our beautiful days." I freaking LOVE it. Thats when my love for the darker images started. Well, escalated. My depression in middle and high school already made me appreciate it some. I liked it because it was true. When we die, we can't take anything with us. It all stays here. Kind of tells what you should be thankful for and what you should appreciate.

I appreciate my family, the fact I'm able to get an education, and my friends. I'm thankful that I never go hungry, that I have a roof over my head, that I have a car that gets me from point a to point me, I'm thankful for my legs, my hands, my head, my heart.

what are you thankful for? Thanksgiving isn't the only day you should be consciously thinking about it.

1. If a really, really good photographer — the kind who always makes you look good and still look like you — were to take your photo right now, what would be a good title for it?
Waiting. Cause I always feel like I am and like it is the story of my life.
2. If that photo were so good it belonged on the cover of a magazine, what would be a good choice, based on where you are and what you’re doing?
Well probably BUST or Nylon. Cause I'm growing a backbone (which i'm pretty proud of) and I'm learning what it is to be strange and beautiful and a mess all at the same time.
3. If you took an interesting or aesthetically pleasing photo of something in your view right now, what might it be, and what would its title be?
Oh Lord, My room is a mess. Probably my ladies on the wall. They're the brightest thing in this room with their Rastafarian colors ;)
4. Among people you know, who seems to have a knack for taking great shots of people?
I do. I'm not high and mighty about this. But I always take the pictures for my friends and edit them and play around with them. Photoshop = my boyfriend. :)
5. Are you usually happier with candid photos of you, or photos you’ve posed for?
Posed for. I have a good side. :)

speaking of good sides... this is totally mine. kidding ;) but its part of reasons why I love my friends. we take really stupid and ugly amazing and attractive pictures with each other while we wait in cars. :-P

I can't believe that made it out of my iphoto. ;) haha!

Make a difference or at least create something:
http://learningtoloveyoumore.com
become a guerilla artist!

more to come for sunday...

Okay check this out. This is an amazing piece of artwork by Georgia Russell (opens in a new window). It is a cut up book in a bell jar. I just love the fantasy feel of it... As if you would find this floating by its self in a leafy, mossy forest with very ethereal lights and kind of a stillness around it that made you hold your breath as your approached it... maybe scared of it falling apart or disappearing before your very eyes. I could imagine it being part of a game or a quest where its valued as a treasure. I certainly would value it for its beauty. This kind of artwork inspires me so much in just my life as well as my artwork. Art is life. Your entire life is a work of art and why not make it beautiful? Why not make it a fantasy?

::sigh:: too bad everyone is concerned with reality.