I am at home for a doctor's appointment and its been nice to relax and calm down a little bit back where I grew up (in Dayton, OH). It turns out that a lot of my stomach problems (i've been insanely hungry all the time even with eating full and complete meals) are due to stress. I feel like I always have something to think about. I'm the kind of person that cannot focus on just finishing one thing... there is always one more thing to take care of and I can't help but think about it. I'm still debating whether or not I should go to Europe this summer or take this summer to take care of myself instead of running away.

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I get all my memes from thedailymeme.com... I don't really like tuesdays or wednesdays because I feel like there aren't a lot of interesting ones... but I liked TMI tuesday this week... usually I don't relate to a lot of the questions they post because I'm not in a relationship, married, etc. but whatever! Good questions this week! :)

1. Do you believe anyone truly likes their job? If so, why?
I think this is HIGHLY true. I mean look at people that are pro surfers, who are making art, etc. Basically people who truly did what they loved and not because they were worried about financial responsibility. I really hate money. You cannot live without it and you feel like you cannot live with it. I think people should honestly think about what they want to do with their lives that makes them happy and just go and do it. LIfe is too short to be a slave for money just so you can buy an extra pair of shoes (although, man, I love me some shoes :P) and something so temporary.


take Kassia Meador... a pro surfer. She's freaking happy and joyful and she is doing something she loves for a job! Strive for that!!! (21 min 59 sec)

2. Do you 1) live to work or 2) work to live 3) not see a difference?
As I said in the previous question I just work to live... Just enough so I can have food, gas, etc. I am trying to get rid of my dependence on my car so I can ride my bike and save money. I think people should probably put more thought into their purchses. I mean that is a big reason why people work so much besides working for rent and groceries. Instead of saving up for something like... a new iphone at $199 or $299 (okay, i still would love one... but it's just materialism)... put that money to a vacation with your friends? Because in 30 years you're not wanting to look back at this point in your life right now and be like "Oh man, that was a great phone." or "man, that jacket was the best thing I've purchased in my life!" you're going to want to look back at the beach trip, road trip, europe trip, whatever your heart desires trip with your friends and have memories, and inside jokes, and laughter that will still be something that you keep with you and will be with you for as long as you live.

3. How many hours do you work a week?
Now that it is summer I think around 25? I prefer to work less... during the school year probably 15-20. I know people probably think that 25 isn't a lot of hours... and it really isn't compared to a lot of people's jobs... but it is for doing something that I'm not going to do the rest of my life. I don't know, I'm just a student right now that wants some extra moolah to be able to do the stuff i want! :)

4. What was your safety item (i.e. blankie) from when you were little?
I don't think I had a safety item. I was really brave. I think if I could go back in time and tell myself to keep being fearless. I think all children should be admired because of their innocence and wonder for learning and seeing what the world is like. WHen you're young, everything is new. I always always the one asking for direction to somewhere, how to do something if I didn't know how to do it, and I would be the first to do stuff. I wasn't afraid. Now i'm more afraid to take risks because i know that there are consequences. I shouldn't be afraid but it is installed in the back of my head to worry a tad. Before, when I was younger, I didn't know what risk and consequence were. I should go back.

“Sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was six and my biggest problem was what kind of dress to put on Barbie or whether or not I had enough Legos to build a fort”

5. Have you ever used food during sex?
Ha, this is way random based on the previous questions... I wouldn't know because I haven't been to that part of my life just yet! :)

Bonus (as in optional):What is your guilty food pleasure?
I eat pretty healthy! I don't really find a lot of pleasure in bad foods. I think I get more joy out of eating something that is going to do well for my body. I love fruits and smoothies, I love roasted vegetables (especially asparagus and carrots!!), and I love eating new things. I don't really find much satisfaction in sweets, but I do like ice cream once in awhile :)


part one - Rob Bell - Rich


part two - Rob Bell - Rich

I've been slacking a whole ton... not on purpose... I just get so tired that my brain feels like its putty oozing out of my ears when I am reading my homework. But at the same time, life is pretty good right now. Things aren't really going wrong and I really realized how awesome my friends are due to a comment that was made by a new friend of mine. He said that my friends are really awesome... and I was like.. Yea... YEA they ARE! haha.

Can we saw off some of the United states so that Ohio can have a beach? K Thanks. I'm kind of tired of this weather.

Sorry I'm absent from this blog... I need to start updating it more. I'll get more organized and I'll finally do everything I was planning to do. Take care for tonight. :)

life is good. and I'll leave you with uber cuteness... :)




enjoooy! :)

"You may say to yourself, "My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth." - Deuteronomy 8:17-18a

I'm back but I've been swamped with make up work for school. its 11:30pm and i just started on my 12 pages of french... ugh

but please listen! beautiful music!!!

*UPDATE*This song is also featured in the new macbook air ad... thats where I originally found it and fell in love... But holy crap, the manila envelope, if you can believe it... is a real carrying case. Through geekologie.com (okay, shut up. I'm a nerd) I found the people that actually make it. it retails at $29.95 and you can order it here. It ships in two weeks-three weeks or so, just about the same time the macbook air ships to stores and homes.



Enjoy!

that made me chuckle a bit. haha!

I'm sorry to all you intelligent Americans out there, but seriously? This makes me ashamed to even be associated with North America's basement!!!! ;) I'm sure that there are idiots in every country and all but this is why people make fun of Americans. cause they see stupid shows like this and see the people that come on there. No, Europe is not a country it is a continent. Budapest doesn't even sound French, are you kidding me? Ever heard of Paris? I thought every blond girl in heels would know one of the fashion capitals of the world.

Things that make you go hmmm...

What's the stupidest thing you've heard someone say lately?

P.S. This post is no way reflecting on this girl but please visit A.P.! She actually just put up a couple good videos from youtube on her site. My favorite is the one by Dove Films at the bottom of her latest post talking about self worth and body image. concentrate on your mind! Your body is so temporary just like everything else, but at least you can keep your mind sharp and beautiful as your outer beauty fades with age! So please visit, comment, give love :)

Its so quiet. I love it. For the first time in a couple of days I have no noise going on in my house. Right now I have everything done that I need to get done for school... well minus about 15-16 pages of French that I've procrastinated on... but I'm surprisingly not even worried about that right now. My room is finally (somewhat) clean. I cleaned the rug and so it actually looks fresh in here.

I wonder why we're so scared of silence. I hate it when no one talks for a long time and then some dipstick says "awwwwwkward!" It wasn't awkward until you said it. Thanks. But seriously, silence is good. We're filled with music and television allllll day. And people that you don't want to hear talking but you have to listen. There is noise everywhere and I'm so glad that I have silence right now. I put on some music earlier to calm me but then I just turned it off.... and it feels so much better.

I'm going to go through my itunes and weed out all the crappy music I don't listen to anymore or is just not my style.

I work 40 hours next week. Just what I need during finals week. :(

Check out this delightful video of Natalie Portman. I just love her voice and how beautiful she is. I really want to be her friend.



She talks about the five most beautiful non musical sounds to her and it got me thinking about what my favorites were.

1. I love the sound of the wind coming in through the window during the springtime. Having my window open makes me happy. I hate stale air and I just love how the breeze comes in and kind of whistles.
2. I love my friends' laughs. They all sound different and fit with each person's personality. I think my favorite is my friend Katie's. Its probably one of the most joyful sounding laughs I've ever heard. :)
3. This is musical but I love My mom singing the polish lullaby she always sang to me when I was little. I think this winter I'm going to record her singing it so I can play it when she's away. I'm 20 years old but I love having my mom cuddle with me and tuck me in. I hope I can offer the same amount of love to my children that she has shown me.
4. The sound of the ocean. I just love the seagulls, the crashing, the sun even seems to make a sound.
5. The sound of the coffee machine just blurbing and babbling when it makes my coffee. I freaking love coffee and it just tells me that its almost ready :)

Wow, that was actually a lot harder to think about than it seemed at first. I'm going to have to pay attention to a lot more stuff now. :)

alright, I gotta get to class. But I love you all. Have an amazing day

what are your favorite non-musical sounds?

Sicne I'm probably going to be busy on Thanksgiving Day, I decided to write what I'm thankful for now. Plus, being thankful shouldn't be something that only occurs on one day a year. Life is full of little surprises and little treats that make you be just that, thankful. So here are ten things that I've noticed this past year that have made me feel great to be alive.

1. Friends who are always there to talk to you, always there to bless your sneezes, to bake you cakes, to take stupid pictures during boring car rides with, to talk to you at 3 am when you cannot sleep, and to just relate.
2. No God, No Peace... Know God. Know Peace. I give the reason why I am still alive to God. I'm proud in my faith and I would love people to know the love and worth I have experience through my faith.
3. My hands that bring me through so many down periods of my life by just pouring my thoughts onto paper and making the scenery and landscapes that usually only exist in my mind become a reality.
4. My legs and feet that bring me one step closer everyday to what I'm working for. I can walk. I can run.
5. Zach Morris. Not the saved by the Bell character... but my beloved friend who passed away what will be two years ago on December 1, 2005. He was a real man and a real character. He knew what it was to be fully alive. I miss you, love you, and thank you so much for helping me through my days.
6. My co-coaches. They've helped me out of financial ruts. what a blessing. they've taught me patience and to have a backbone.
7. My family. We're not there for each other 100% of the time... but that makes me want to know them more and appreciate what they have done for me already. My mother is a beautiful dreamer, my father bears the intelligence that would rival Einstein, and my sister for being the crazy beautiful mess that she is and always uproots me when its desperately needed.
8. My Recent Awakening. Life is to be taken by the horns. Time to work on my bucket list.
9. Literature. Thank you for being my escape into a realm of dreams and wanted scenarios from teh harsh reality of people who do not understand.
10. Baz Luhrman's "Sunscreen Song" brings me up whenever I am feeling down. As cheesey and old as some people think it is... He states the truth. You never know what is going to happen in your life. Appreciate and kiss it now.

Hugs = great. I love this video. watch and enjoy :)

I'm totally all about the humor in a relationship. I love it when a guy can make me laugh hardcore and just have fun with me. I don't like the nervous dates where you talk about stuff you're not even sure you should be talking about just yet. Haha, I just love the movies where the guy makes up funny songs for the girl on their guitars. Like adam sandler in the wedding singer and 50 first dates. The cuteness is freaking too much to bear in "Forgetful Lucy" even though he makes a ton of jokes that aren't really romantic at all in some parts. I'd totally date Adam Sandler just for the chance that he might right me a funny love song.

And even though this song gets worse and worse (and by worse I mean funnier) as it goes, When Bret sings to his girl in Flight of the Conchords wondering what she's into... you know. sexually. He brings it up in a song with Jemaine just singing in the background... makes the subject matter into something hilarious. you'll have to watch it:



But yea, funny songs are the shizznit. especially if someone you like is singing them to you. haha! Cause in all those funny songs you see the little things that the other person notices in who he wrote the song for. From something serious that she does to something really funny you can't really help but pick at it. Okay, I'm being a nerd. I'm going to go study for my French midterm. BAH!

P.S. if you haven't seen this show yet, you are seriously being deprived. Just letting you know... :P

P.P.S anyone else feeling the pressure of NaBloPoMo like me yet? EEP!

Okay, so at first I didn't give these guys a chance but they are freaking hilarious! They just remind me and give me ideas for videos to create later. So enjoy the video! :)

I almost got myself scammed by some people who lack integrity. If my friends know me well enough, they know thats the thing that makes me the most mad. I hate it when people lack integrity. I think thats the only thing in the world I hate more than Satan. Ha! Some guys thought I was stupid enough to send them 1300 dollars. Heres the story: So my friend, Ian, is being stationed overseas and gave me back the beerpong table I made him 2 years ago for his 21st birthday because he just can't hold onto the big things he owns... cause he has no use for them. Anyway, I put it on craigslist.org (which is amazing still despite all the scammers) and got an offer for it. The guy seemed shady from the start because of his lack of correct spelling so i thought I was maybe dealing with someone foreign. My parents are foreign so they don't always spell things right in English so that was my reasoning. Second thing that was shady was that he never picked up his phone when I called by answered emails. Anyway, he sends me this cashier's check for $1500. WHAT?! I only offered the table for $200 and what he said was to deposit the check and send the rest of the money via Western Union to him in FLORIDA. WHAT?! First off, I listed the table in Columbus ONLY and second, it does NOT cost that much to ship something like that. If you can ship a 1000 dollar plasma television for under 100 bucks, you can certainly ship a table for that much. So Yea, i email the guys asking them what to do and I knew I was in trouble when they gave me a short impatient answer telling me that 200 of the check was mine and the rest was for the "shippers". So long story short, in their dreams I would of cashed a fake $1500 cashier's check thinking it was okay going to a western union the very same day to wire them $1300 for shipping. So in a few weeks, the fake cashier's check would bounce, I would be 1500 in debt to the bank, I would be getting into legal trouble/matters, and they would be sitting happy with the $1300 I never had in the first place. So I told them I'm not doing the transaction until the check clears (which means NEVER... END OF TRANSACTION LOSERS) because I don't want to be scammed... not to mention I gave them a nice little happy face to show them I'm not a freaking idiot. Needless to say, I have not gotten an answer back.

Canada - 1
America - 0

booya.